no one has gotten over their loss.




thinkin back, i miss the times with her. i knew i bastard her a period of time. but y? coz i juz listen to wad they say too much. with no acceptance of her at all. with no thought of my own. it's juz so pathetic. if i didnt bastard her, would things change?



thinkin now. behind those smiley, cheery faces, how much do they hide? it's impossible to find a best fren n share everything wif him/her rite? if not, this might not happen.



WHY!?!?



sis was shocked when i told her the news yest. n she asked if alot ppl went for her wake. n i say ya. n she asked again, if it was her wake, would i even come. wth. wad a dumb qn. but yea, i dun like voicin my thoughts out. so sis, if u're readin, i WILL go for ur wake though it's not compulsory. but tat day wun come soon. it will be decades later k?



another thing tat suddenly went thru my mind juz now. too much compliments aint good. she's pretty. no, she aint pretty at all. she's cute. no, she aint cute at all. she's great dressing sense. no, her dressin sucks. she's style. no, it's disgusting. see wad i mean? whenever there's someone complimentin u, there's bound to be someone commentin u. so the amount of compliments would normally be tonnes of times lesser than the comments u get.



someone who has receive tonnes of compliments bout his/her looks -> hahs, i'm the prettiest/most handsome among them. so who cares as long as all the guys/girls are looking at me? who cares as long as the guys/girls tok onli to me? who cares as long as all the guys/girls who tok to me falls for me? (n if the person aint good lookin enough) eee. leave mi alone. dun come near me. blah blah blah.
this leading to being over confident, arrogant. n once they get hit by a ugly nasty comment, they might try shootin back. but if they cant, they might do nasty things to the one who say them.

someone who has receive compliments all his/her life normally has the mindset of them being the greatest, the best of all. thus givin them the mindset tat if someone aint as good as them, juz ignore or say some nasty things so tat they can have their revenge. pls, pls, pls THINK before u act/say anything. it can hurt someone damn badly.



stop acting as if u're realli so damn pretty/handsome. u're not! u are onli in some ppl's eyes. not everyone! diff ppl have diff perceptions. diff opinions. diff thinking. diff thought. u cant ever expect everyone to have the same kind of mindset, thoughts n thinkings. coz if tat ever happens, in this world there would hav much more peace. wif no conflicts or anything. no bombin or terrorist attacks. n u'll onli need one person on earth n tat's more than enough.



think i've typed too much rubbish in my entries. n i wonder if anyone realli reads n think bout y i write these nonsensical stuffs. maybe it means nuthing to u. but it means much to mi. everthing i type, i make an effort. maybe it makes no sense to u, but it's another to mi. maybe i'm juz repeating wad i have said before. it juz makes no sense. i'm tired. sometimes real tired from everything. i need a break. i need my sleep! i'm tired.


tat's life. it's juz so pathetic. when u dun have a tot of ur own. when others can control ur mind. n even ur life. n tat's life~




when i'm alone. tat's when i realli think.
i still very much want my bracelet back.